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a general update I guess
Dec. 26th, 2019 01:50 pmDone with the semester, which means probably pretty much done with coursework. Haven't checked my grades, whoopee, but I probably did fine. It's been....stressful. I'm not taking classes this upcoming semester so hopefully I will be better rested. I'll be doing teaching and, HOPEFULLY, the second draft of my qualifying paper, assuming my SUPERVISOR gets the COMMENTS to me. He's a very busy man so it always takes forever but I'm like Sir Please It's Been Four Months.
That's why I've not been posting or commenting the last...couple of months....? I just felt completely overwhelmed and not up to the kind of interpersonal interaction Dreamwidth fosters, and I don't want this platform to be a chore. Tbh, I've been so severely burnt out the last while that even answering texts and messages on tumblr has felt like torture, so. Better to step away from things when possible. I've had my tumblr post notifications off for like two months. It's been pretty bad, which is weird because I was only taking 3 classes and teaching 1, but I guess the burnout reached a critical mass.
I've been doing way less work than usual because Bowman is here, and I've been feeling awful about it (resting feels bad! brain feels slow!) but today I got on the computer to do work for my second job and I did THREE complete articles. Which I've never done. So I guess intensive rest is having a little bit of effect. I'm gonna try to dial back my activities this upcoming semester, hopefully.
I'm going back to Ohio in two days, but I'm not feeling optimistic about it. I hate traveling because I hate not sleeping in my own bed. And it feels like ripping a scab off and I don't feel emotionally strong enough to handle seeing my family again.
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I really want to write a post about kink stuff because I've thought about things, so if I feel strong enough maybe I'll do that later.
T is going pretty good; I've upped my dose just this week but my voice is starting to change and I have one (1) hair on my chin now. It's changing my thoughts on future transition options in a good way. Might post about that later too to get my thoughts out.
Also! The novel I'm writing is 13 chapters in, out of maybe....17, 20? So that's pretty cool! I hope to finish not just this draft but hopefully the next one in this upcoming year. Maybe.
That's why I've not been posting or commenting the last...couple of months....? I just felt completely overwhelmed and not up to the kind of interpersonal interaction Dreamwidth fosters, and I don't want this platform to be a chore. Tbh, I've been so severely burnt out the last while that even answering texts and messages on tumblr has felt like torture, so. Better to step away from things when possible. I've had my tumblr post notifications off for like two months. It's been pretty bad, which is weird because I was only taking 3 classes and teaching 1, but I guess the burnout reached a critical mass.
I've been doing way less work than usual because Bowman is here, and I've been feeling awful about it (resting feels bad! brain feels slow!) but today I got on the computer to do work for my second job and I did THREE complete articles. Which I've never done. So I guess intensive rest is having a little bit of effect. I'm gonna try to dial back my activities this upcoming semester, hopefully.
I'm going back to Ohio in two days, but I'm not feeling optimistic about it. I hate traveling because I hate not sleeping in my own bed. And it feels like ripping a scab off and I don't feel emotionally strong enough to handle seeing my family again.
( Read more... )
I really want to write a post about kink stuff because I've thought about things, so if I feel strong enough maybe I'll do that later.
T is going pretty good; I've upped my dose just this week but my voice is starting to change and I have one (1) hair on my chin now. It's changing my thoughts on future transition options in a good way. Might post about that later too to get my thoughts out.
Also! The novel I'm writing is 13 chapters in, out of maybe....17, 20? So that's pretty cool! I hope to finish not just this draft but hopefully the next one in this upcoming year. Maybe.
